Tonight at Greenwood Bible College week one of 4th semester, binding and losing. I was overwhelmed by the presence of the Holy Spirit tonight that’s just indescribable. The presence of him just over took me tonight in a way he never has before. He’s blessed me so much in feeling his presence and discerning his voice. I know he’s training me for his army to one day fight and that fight is happening now. I literally shook and weeped like never before. I didn’t know what to think the more he grows in me the more I grow towards and in him. The presence of the Lord has been in me before but this is so much more than anything I could describe.

Thank you Father for all your blessings.

Amen!!!

Today is day 64 of my fast and day 24 of the 40 day prayer.

I have found a new level of humility that’s involved in my devotion to my fasting and my time in the word all compounded with prayer. The Lord is my strength as I wake each day and give my all to him. I choose to serve him in all I am and he humbles me so much but still gives me more strength than I ever thought possible. I give him all the honor and glory in my life. I am only sustained by his grace and mercy, which he pours out on me daily. I may still fight my flesh daily but he gives me the strength to overcome. In all these days I have found a new life in prayer and he’s gave me conviction to be in the word more and pray for me to change me rather than others to change for me. I’ve found new revelation in getting on my knees to pray rather than just praying how I was or am at any time. There’s nothing wrong with praying as I am at anytime but in times of fervent and diligent prayer I must get on my knees to give him all the honor and glory and completely submit myself to him in all I am. The bending of the knee is the start of humbling myself to him and placing him above me where he rightfully belongs. As I kneel I give him the glory he deserves and I see that he is the Father of all. He doesn’t demand I kneel but if I want to truly show him more reverence and honor I choose to kneel to give him my all, just as I would lay my problems at the foot of the cross, I lay myself at the foot of the cross every time I kneel. We must daily seek him in all we do, especially when we are going to him in prayer. No matter if we are just giving praise and honor or seeking out guidance, we should give him what is his and that is (the entirety of who we are). I feel a new piece of all I am in Christ as I kneel and give him myself entirely. He’s given me the gift of being baptized in the Spirit (3-17-19 day 56) and it’s spoke volumes to my walk and my prayer life. Through my prayers I give him all I am capable of and the Spirit gives what I’m not capable of as I pray in the Spirit. 

I have found I strength in my faith as I yield to the Spirit in prayer. As I pray for the health and deliverance of my family he strengthens my faith and my knowledge of all Christ has given us through the atonement. We are complete through the atonement all we have to do is receive it and exercise our faith in prayer, admiration, study of the word, fasting, honor, glory, & humility. I’ve found all this so overwhelming in so many ways that so much is just simply indescribable in words. I know the Lord knows my heart and his Spirit can discern my heart in all matters. 

Thank you Father for all you have graced me with. 

Amen!!!